Thursday, April 15, 2010

I'm Back!

It has been forever....I know. My dear friend Jon Skaar brought up blogging in a facebook note and I then realized how long it had been since I have been on here. I will try to be more diligent about blogging because I love it! It is a wonderful way to work things out, to self evaluate, to share what is happening spiritually, physically and otherwise in my life. So here we go...

I am ready for the end of the year. I love my job, but I do need a break from some aspects (along with school). I am so happy with where I am currently. Last year this time I was finishing up a challenging job and was away from Jer. I am married and loving everything that I do.

I have been doing an exercise program called Insanity and I love it. I have been trying to lose some of the weight I put on this winter and it seems to be helping slowly but surely. I am a part of an instant gratification generation, so I think I need to be a little more patient in the results. I have also been working very hard on eating right, so we will see if my efforts pay off. I sure hope they do soon :)

This is the part of the blog I need the most: the spiritual part of my life. Jer and I have been trying to read a chapter from the bible every night. Currently we are reading Romans and I forgot how much I love that book, especially chapter 6. Paul's words sound like a conversation I have with myself. "I know sin is wrong, but I do it...why do I do it if I love God and He is so much better than sin....sin is no good, why am I drawn?" Makes me feel better that Paul had the same conversation that I have with myself daily, but I do get frustrated. God has helped me come a long way, but it seems almost inevitable that I will say something that is not pleasing to Him. Whether a crass comment, sarcasm, a curse word or something about someone, my tongue is like that described in James 3. Here enters my instant gratification again I suppose. I know God is at work in me, but I am not patient. I also feel like I only focus on what needs to be fixed rather than all the ways that He has helped me grow. I need a more balanced approach to thank Him for His goodness and pray that I might honor Him more. Your prayers are greatly appreciated. Here is the other thing.....I feel a as though I am lagging in my spirituality. I am very busy, which I have been for the past 6 years of my life. However, in years past, I was surrounded by Christianity: at Vanguard it was Oregon I was very involved in church and weekly small group. Now with my current job I am lucky if I make it to church once a week. I know this is most likely the fountainhead of the issue, but I know God is bigger than my busy work and grad school schedule. Lord meet me where I am, so desperately needing more of you in my life. Help me to honoring you in word, thought and deed and let our ministry be for you Lord....that those who see Your light through us will want more of you. Let us be on fire for you. Amen.

Always feel so much better after that. There are a few other stress factors in my life, but I know my God is in control of that and will guide me. my goal is to blog once a week....I can do that :)


Brianna said...

i'm trying to get back into blogging and excercise too! I discovered free aerobics and kickboxing videos that I can watch on Netflix Instant watch...pretty stoked about that! What kind of excercise are you doing?

Emil said...

Oh...I will have to check that out. Have you heard of the program Insanity? It is awesome. But I will have to switch it up soon. I think I will shoot for swimming again soon