Confusion

Egotistical, entitled

Neurotic I suppose, 

Deserving, a calling,

A life of purpose of sorts.

Are these desires selfish?

Are they for my own good?

Is being a voice flooded

By a sea of others who would?

Am I apathetic if I stay where I am?

Will I regret not trying for more?

Or is thinking I'm called for greater,

Like the words mentioned before?

I hate apathy,

But I hate feeling entitled,

I want to live in the moment,

And not be in denial 

So direct me if I missing something,

If You have called me for more,

And not let the precious moments,

Slip away evermore